Lydia is visiting her family’s hardscrabble no tech farm in Pennsylvania (detoxing from the luxurious cheeses of France, no doubt) so will not be back with us for a few more weeks. I am therefore posting a little early. LA LA!After two weeks of stalling and hem-hawing and just NOT wanting to, I have finally pushed the portion control button. I rejoined Weight Watchers. For the nine millionth time. Believe me, I did EVERYTHING I could to avoid it. I made some other changes that are good in and of themselves, but aren’t changing anything big picture.
Per week one, I am exercising 6 days a week again. Per week 2, I have upped my intake of fruits and vegetables, trying to get 5 a day and mostly succeeding. Even so? The post surgical Schubert I gained is still exactly an entire Schubert. No movement on the scale, and, more telling, no movement in how my clothes fit. In the wake of the surgery with my body still kinda…freaked out, I think I am going to have to be HUGELY disciplined to get my body to change at all.
I had a BAD moment rejoining, where I could see the GRAPH, you know? The one from when I did BETTER U? And the line on the graph goes down and down from when I felt puffy and sluggish to where I ended, pre-surgery, two sizes smaller and feeling and high energy and pleased and healthy. Yesterday it showed me the line POST surgery, going RIGHT BACK to sluggish and puffy. It was hard to look at that. To see how much ground I have lost, and how far I have to go to get back to how GOOD I FELT after Better U.
I allowed myself a quick-n-dirty weep with a single self-pitying screaming email to Sara, and then wiped the chart. I am starting fresh. One push-up, one healthy food choice, 1/17th of a Schubert at a time.
I know South Beach works FASTER but…I also know I just got a Bread Machine. Weight Watchers works, too, a little slower, and I get to eat my own bread. YAY! I am RABIDLY excited about this bread machine, let me tell you. The way it makes my house smell is worth the price of admission. And there was a price…
I got on Freecycle to stalk a free bread machine last year. It’s EXACTLY the kind of thing people buy or get for Christmas and never use, so they are quite likely to show up on Freecycle. My friend Julie saw a couple given away right before I joined. But from the moment I signed up, there was a bread machine DEARTH. All the unused bread machines scuttled to duck back behind olf blenders and waffle makers, which were grabbed and freecycled with mad abandon.
Worse? I learned I could never give anything away. It freaked me out. Every time I tried to post one of the MANY too-large-to-easily-get-to-Goodwill furniture type items I WISH was not currently clotting up my garage, the novelist in me would construct elaborate and HIGHLY unlikely plot arcs involving stalkers, cannibalism, and my head on a pike in some freak’s basement. I always backed away, and all of the items in questions are still sitting in my garage. Meanwhile my car is still sitting in the driveway with no place to go. *martyred sigh*
Then one day, WOOT! had a VERY nice Cuisinart bread machine for about 40% of the retail price. Scott jumped on it, and right now, the smell of perfect bread is making me crazy with carb-lust. YAY!
If YOU have a bread machine you never use, but you are too afraid of cannibals to freecycle it, you should dig it out NOW. My friend Katie sent this recipe to me It is from an out of print book called “The Bread Machine Cookbook. It is awesome; I mess with the proportions a little, using more wheat flour and less bread flour to fiber it up some. I leave out the nuts because Sam is allergic. The items go in the pan in the order listed.1 1/3 c. water
2 2/3 Tb. vegetable oil
2 2/3 Tb. honey
1 1/2 tsp. salt
1 1/3 c. oatmeal
2/3 c. whole wheat flour
2 c. bread flour
1/4 c. nonfat dry milk
2 1/2 tsp. yeast
You can also add 2/3 c. chopped walnuts, if you like.
This makes a WIDE loaf! I cut it down the middle, to divide it in half, then cut each half 8 times, so each half yielded 9 slices. (Each slice is only 2 WW points. Each slice is also completely AWESOME.)
Enjoy, and hopefully by next week all my little steps forward will begin to give me those coveted partial-Schubert-loss returns.