Last week Kate Moss enraged virtuous eaters of balanced diets everywhere by telling Woman’s Wear Daily that her motto is “Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.” How dare this skinny woman encourage herself not to eat? How morally decayed. How grossly irresponsible. Doesn’t she know that size zero women have been banned from showing their faces in Europe for years now? Not even Vogue can tolerate the tiny these days. Doesn’t she know that over a bazillion young women are suffering from skinniness already? One critic called Kate’s comment “shocking” and predicted that it would cause many more women to become anorexic or bulemic.
In other news, a fat lady somewhere adopted the motto “I can be as fat as I want to be and anyone who says anything about it is going to get a punch in the face” and the world applauded.
If skinny Kate Moss shares her mantra for skipping cheesecake, she’s not only self-destructive, but also indoctrinating a generation of teenagers to become skeletal. If a fat person loves herself for being fat, she’s well-adjusted. How exactly did that come about? I’ve never heard a fat positive spokesperson criticized for turning the world’s teens obese. That’s clearly the fault of fast food restaurants and video games. The blame for anorexia, however, can be laid at the (small) feet of Kate Moss. Never mind the parents taking any responsibility. Never mind the teens themselves having anything to do with it. They haven’t been shown how to properly love themselves. And the only way you can properly love yourself, we all know, is if you’re fat. Loving yourself as skinny is totally, absolutely wrong.
I realize the prejudice against fat is deep and wide. I realize that as a product of years spent looking at magazines and television and movie images equating skinny with beauty it’s impossible for me to step outside my media programming and truly know what I want my body to look like. However, I also know that it’s *my decision* what I want to do with my body, and if I want to lose weight because I don’t like being fat, and if I want to loudly and publicly say “I don’t want to be fat!” then that’s fine, and I’m not going to temper every utterance with “Not that there’s anything wrong with that.”
I find it a little ridiculous that here on a diet blog, on a blog whose sole purpose is to motivate us to lose weight, that we are being scolded for attaching value to a smaller size. Like we’re supposed to say “I’m going to lose ten pounds, but just for a random reason, just because I am bored, because I have nothing better to do on a Saturday, and Joshilyn asked me to.” Trying to diet and exercise off 10 pounds while maintaining a public position inside the socially acceptable limits of “Fat is beautiful!” would be ridiculous. I’m not motivating myself to lose weight by declaiming, “It’s too bad I have to do this to myself because of the bad culture of bad hypocrisy and bad body image!” Bah. Pish posh.
I want to lose weight because I want to be skinny. I want to exercise because I want to get fit. I want to be able to bound up stairs like a gazelle and fit into my cute jeans and jump on the bed and see my collarbones. I want to lose weight, because I want to see if Kate Moss is not crazy, or self-abusive, or what’s wrong with America, but maybe actually right. In fact, I’m kind of excited to find out.